Remember my name, you will be screaming it later…

When I was a child, and even into my teenage years, I dreamt of one day being famous. Famous for what? Singing? Writing? Winning a prestigious award? I can’t remember exactly what it was that I hoped to be famous for but I do remember lacking the motivation to excel at anything. I kind of figured that I was OK with just being average at about everything I did. So, that’s what I was, an average kid. And today, I’m an average adult.

Who are these people that wake up one day and say, “Hey, I really like X. I think I’ll revolve my whole life around it.” Crazy people that’s who. I am not crazy, I’m too lazy for that nonsense. However, once in a while I get ridiculously grandiose ideas and, in a moment of weakness, talk myself into trying one of them. Eventually common sense, and possibly a little bit of fear, compel me to weed out the ridiculous ideas from the socially acceptable ones and my life continues as it was before.

I often wonder though, what could I have done or still have the potential to do? Could I really have been a lawyer or a doctor or a writer or an accountant? If I applied myself could I be inspired to do scrapbooking or culinary arts or photography? Oh…I don’t know…that’s so much work though.

I’m not sure God knew what he was doing when he made me. He created someone who has the desire to excel at something big but who has an even bigger desire to just finish the dishes and fold one more load of laundry before I sit down for the evening….

It doesn’t matter what the glass is…

I have decided that it doesn’t matter if the glass is half-full or half-empty; at some point it will still need to be washed.

I often find myself focusing on what I DON’T have so today I will remind myself of what I DO have.

1. I don’t have a nanny but I do have a wonderful babysitter.
2. I don’t have a cleaning lady but I do have a very useful husband.
3. I don’t have a gardener but I do have extremely helpful parents.
4. I don’t have my dream job but I do have a job that is good enough to support my family until my husband is done with school.
5. I don’t have a hair dresser but I do have access to a nice salon that is easy to get to over my lunch break.
6. I don’t have a best friend that lives close by but I do have a lot of good friends that I see regularly.
7. I don’t have experience raising children but I do have plenty of friends and family who do and they all own phones and have access to email.
8. I don’t have a laundry service but I do have a brand new washer and dryer that are no longer located in a dark creepy basement.
9. I don’t have a lot of free time but I do have clean clothes to wear, a presentable house, a full tummy, a perfect daughter and an amazing husband.
10. I don’t have a million dollars. That sucks.

Rachel

We think she's just about perfect.

I WILL get to work on time....

Every weekday is the same for me. My alarm goes off at 4:50 AM. If I can’t think of a decent excuse to skip my morning exercise then I get up. Otherwise I wait until 5:30. However, after that things get fuzzy.

Each day I tell myself that I will only work on the few essential things I need to do (laundry, empty the dishwasher, wash bottles, feed the cats, pack my bags for work, etc). But, ladies, you know how we are….it’s almost impossible to stay on task. For example, one morning last week I went to empty the dishwasher and ended up cleaning out the fridge. I was feeling pretty good about my early morning accomplishments until I realized that Rachel, with daddy’s help, was singing a song about how her bottle wasn’t ready yet and she was very hungry. Oops.

But, I digress. Every morning I tell myself that today I will make it to work on time. I used to get to work at least 20 minutes early. Surely I should be able to make it there by 7:59. It finally occurred to me the other day that perhaps I should try to accomplish less in the mornings. After all, how many other people are sweeping their sidewalks and spraying vinegar on a cat-urine stained rug at 5:00 AM? Probably no one. So, if I really do compare myself to other mothers than shouldn’t I find my actions insane? You would think.

I won’t be at work on time tomorrow. I have to take Rachel to a doctor’s appointment.

Let’s see if this one works…

I have always thought it would be nice to have a blog. About a year ago I discovered that starting a blog is easy. I opened an account, picked out a domain name, typed up my first entry and then promptly forgot about it.

Recently I decided that it's time to try blogging again. I love to write and I have lots of friends and family that I would love to share our lives with, so it only seems natural that I would have a blog. The catch? I'm a new mom and can hardly find time to shower regularly let alone blog regularly.

So, working moms.....can I do this? Can I be gone from home over 50 hours a week, get my family fed, the laundry done, the house cleaned, play with my little girl AND blog semi-regularly? We'll see I guess.

And so begins the experiment.....