I'm fat...but I can change....if I have to...I guess.
Dear Lord, Please Please PLEASE help me to become more motivated. This is just getting ridiculous. For almost my entire life I've struggled with my weight and was always quite motivated to work at losing whenever I needed to. In fact, my husband once assured me that he was okay with my weight (the highest I had ever been at that time) because he was confident that I could lose it.
The times, they have changed. I know that I can work at it. I know that I can do it. I know that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. Here's the problem....for the first time in my life I'm okay with my weight. I don't necessarily like it but I also don't feel self-conscience about it and I don't find myself standing in department stores in tears because my pants won't fit. That's healthy, right? It's healthy to be okay with yourself, right? I mean, 15 years ago I would have LOVED to feel this way about being me.
BUT that's the thing. I'm not healthy. I'm not at a good weight. How did this happen? How did I find myself FINALLY happy in my own skin but not at a healthy weight? I'm happier now than I was 50 pounds ago. ugh!!!!!!!
God, please help me. I KNOW that I need help. I KNOW that I need to get healthy. I KNOW that I need motivation. And, perhaps equally as important....I KNOW that I could use $300 in prize money.
Fat Olympics II- And so it begins (again)...