April 1, 2011

Put that soda down...

I'm fat...but I can change....if I have to...I guess.

Dear Lord, Please Please PLEASE help me to become more motivated. This is just getting ridiculous. For almost my entire life I've struggled with my weight and was always quite motivated to work at losing whenever I needed to. In fact, my husband once assured me that he was okay with my weight (the highest I had ever been at that time) because he was confident that I could lose it.

The times, they have changed. I know that I can work at it. I know that I can do it. I know that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. Here's the problem....for the first time in my life I'm okay with my weight. I don't necessarily like it but I also don't feel self-conscience about it and I don't find myself standing in department stores in tears because my pants won't fit. That's healthy, right? It's healthy to be okay with yourself, right? I mean, 15 years ago I would have LOVED to feel this way about being me.

BUT that's the thing. I'm not healthy. I'm not at a good weight. How did this happen? How did I find myself FINALLY happy in my own skin but not at a healthy weight? I'm happier now than I was 50 pounds ago. ugh!!!!!!!

God, please help me. I KNOW that I need help. I KNOW that I need to get healthy. I KNOW that I need motivation. And, perhaps equally as important....I KNOW that I could use $300 in prize money.

Fat Olympics II- And so it begins (again)...

4 comments:

  1. Bring it! - Theresa

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  2. I am doing a challenge with my sisters and a group of high school friends. We only see each other about twice a year and at our Annual New Years Party my middle sister made a huge announcement and threw out a challenge all at the same time.

    Her announcement "SHE IS GETTING MARRIED IN OCTOBER!!" We could not be more thrilled.

    Her Challenge, " A weight loss competition to finish 10 months later on her wedding day." We all put $25 in the pot and off we go.

    I wish you the very best of luck on meeting your weight loss goals! Stopping by from SITS.

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  3. I know how scary losing weight can be. I was 30lbs heavier last year. The hardest part is committing to losing it. The fear of failure stalls me all of the time! My biggest motivator are those first few pounds (which are easiest to lose). When the drop off it makes me feel great and I want to keep seeing that number go down.

    An easy way to drop a few is to just cut out one or two of your biggest offenders (like soda or fast food) and replace with a less sinful option. For me it was dairy (can we say CHEESE and ICE CREAM!), once I cut that out and replaced with things I liked, I dropped 10lbs easily. Don't go on a crazy diet that you feel deprived on, just take out one or two things at a time.

    I SO know that you can do it!! I am the biggest quitter and I did it, so can you!! If you need any support or help, please just let me know. Oh and my husband is a personal trainer, so I know all about husband pressure. He totally hates it when I am out of shape.

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